Confessions of a child

I was a kid who used to jump and play around. Lived life my way. Wanted things my way. Finicky in my way. Had major issues in everything and everyone who didn’t listen to things I said. I was adamant. I was stubborn. I was jealous.

My best friend Ron was my best friend because he listened and agreed to all my compulsions.

Until one day he said,”Walter, you are one of the most self-centered, selfish guys I have ever seen in my life. Rectify yourself, else nobody will be with you in life.” I was shocked. I couldn’t believe my ears.

The Realization

All sounds disappeared. Everyone around me dimmed to a murmur. I couldn’t hear anybody anymore. My life was suddenly left barren. I felt being accused and wronged. How could this be? Was I actually selfish and self centered? Disturbed, I walked back home dejected. The sentences playing inside my head with the same intonation like a broken recorder. Until I started looking at my own actions. Yes, Ron was right. I was selfish. The way my parents agreed to everything I said and did, made me feel like I own the world. Nope, I owed the world… and that was the truth. Time had stopped and the clock had stopped ticking. Life refused to budge an inch till I agreed to come out of the slow motions that were in my head. I was 10 years old. I decided then and there, I will empathize, love, understand and be there for my near and dears, friends and family. I will learn to unlearn and realize that everybody is imperfect including me… The clock had started ticking again…

The Vision and the Hope

That day, Ron saved me. Today at 85, I sit with Ron, Joshua, Ryan and Matis to play cards while our wives and kids spend time together… and our grand kids play around the barbeque. I look at them and smile…

You know… they are school classmates too. Hopefully they also will have a day when their clocks will stop ticking and start ticking like mine did once…

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